Today is my birthday!
I’m going to be honest, I’m not sure how I feel about it. It will be the first birthday I’ve spent without my loving husband spoiling me rotten. I don’t like that one bit. But it will also be the first birthday of my “new” life, and I very much want it to be full of joy and celebration. Because one thing I’ve learned in all of this loss nonsense is that every moment of every day, I am lucky to be alive. I am blessed to be watching my kids grow and learn. I am grateful for the time I have here with them and I want to cherish it.
I know in a lot of ways it will be a sad day because I always feel Garry’s absence more acutely on special days. But I am planning to spend the day with girlfriends having lunch and buying myself a little something special and then having a nice dinner with my kiddos (that I refuse to cook myself!).
And this weekend, my mom and sister have rallied to pull together my annual birthday pilgrimage to Magnolia Market in Waco. We have gone every year for the past three years and it has been the best birthday gift every time! We stay in the Indigo Hotel and we absolutely love it because it’s a precious little boutique hotel with amazing food and it’s two blocks from the Silos. How much better can it get?! I am very excited about my trip.
So I am another year older and very much on a journey I never wanted or expected or could even imagine. But here I am. I have no idea what this chapter of my life will bring. I hope this year will bring me healing and peace. I pray that this year will bring me joy and contentment. I am certain this year will bring challenges and learning experiences. Through it all, I am going to hold on tight and try to enjoy the ride!
For my birthday, I wanted to share a little gift with you, my internet friends. I made this little printable to put in a pretty little frame in my office. I want it to be a reminder to myself this year. I hope it will help to remind you to trust your own journey, wherever it is leading you, and try to enjoy it for all it’s worth!